IVF #1 Cancelled

My Doctor called on Friday to inform me that my estrogen level had reached 6000 and we had to cancel the cycle this month. I was instructed to get off all of my meds and we are to wait until I start my next period. Once I start my period I am to call and schedule an ultrasound to check for cyst again. He had previously mentioned that we might freeze the embryo's but he didn't want to risk the quality of the embryo's due to the high estrogen level.  I'm not going to lie this was a little devastating to hear but at the same time I am thankful that I was closely monitored. I do not want something like this to be the reason that my IVF cycle wasn't successful. So I am continuing to keep the faith. As frustrating as this process has been I am finally realizing that nothing is on my timetable. Deep down I already knew this but I haven't made peace with it. God is in control of all things and this is his way of telling me that this month would not have been a successful month. So I am thanking God for finally helping me accept that I am not in control, he is. I have to stay positive. I have been reading Joyce Meyer's book Battlefield of the mind and it has really helped me realize what a toxic mind I had developed. I have been so negative through this process and as hard as it might be I have to start thinking positive. I know in my heart that God will deliver us our miracle. Why in the world am I praying for our baby and to have peace and strength to get through this journey if I am continuing to doubt the direction God is directing our path? Why would God help us if I have this type of attitude and thinking pattern? 
With God we will succeed!

IVF Week 2: Possibly canceling cycle this month

Yesterday my Nurse called and took me off of Follistim because my estrogen levels were high. I had to go back this morning and my estrogen level doubled from yesterday. I have to go back tomorrow but its most likely that they are going to freeze my embryos and start over next month. I didn't really understand the part that estrogen played in an IVF cycle until I just googled it and honestly I'm still a little confused. I am so frustrated that my body is not cooperating but thankful because I definitely do not want to go through transfer with an increased risk of a failed attempt. The life of an infertile woman is such a rollercoaster! But God is going to get me through this, it will eventually be my time!

IVF Week 2

So far so good this week. I have been going to the Doctor about every other day to check my follicle growth and was told today that it looks like I will be scheduled for the egg retrieval on Monday or Tuesday of next week. I am beginning to get some bruising from the injections and a little soreness but other than that I have no complaints. I am just so thankful that I am able to have this procedure. I am so thankful that I am one step closer to holding our miracle. These past couple of years have been such a struggle but through those struggles I have managed to shake it off and keep my eyes on the prize. Thank you Jesus for giving me the strength! There are days that I have my doubts and let my emotions get the best of  me (my Husband says this is the hormones LOL)  but after I have my breakdown I am ready to get back up.
I will be needing prayers the next couple of weeks as we go through the retrieval and transfer process so I am needing all of you prayer warriors out there to add my Husband and I to your list. For those following our story I will post more next week after the retrieval. Praying for healthy eggs!!

IVF Week 1

I started the Lupron injections on the 4th and sticking myself was not near as bad as I thought it would be. When I received the box of medications I saw a couple packs of very large needles and was a little nervous about how I was not going to hit muscle....these suckers were the length of a pinkie finger. When I went in for my appointment on Friday the nurse informed me that those needles were actually used to draw the medication and I immediately exhaled with relief. Yesterday was the last day of the birth control pills so I have to start my period by Friday in order for us to be able to have our IVF completed this month, if not I will have to wait until next month. So praying Aunt Flow will pop up within the next few days.