Friday, June 20, 2014

Pregnancy Test

Well we received heartbreaking news yesterday, my pregnancy test came back negative. We did a fresh cycle with PGD testing and one embryo was transferred. Yesterday we were devastated and exhausted and this morning it turned in to anger. I've prayed and stayed faithful and I just don't understand? So many emotions flood through your head and it almost feels like I have miscarried again. My Husband has been my rock and is wanting to try again also which I am thankful. I just received the news from my Nurse a couple of hours ago and they biopsied one embryo the day of my transfer and the results came back and it is healthy and ready for us when we are. I go in to talk to my Doctor in about a week to discuss if this is the route we should take but I am feeling pretty confident since nothing is wrong with either of us that this is the path we will take. I am just so confused, how did it not work? I realize it wasn't in God's plan for us or it would have happened but I just can't wrap my head around it. We did everything right. We even paid the extra money to have the embryo tested to assure a healthy one was getting transferred. These results are so heartbreaking but I am continuing to believe that God is going to deliver my miracle and I realize that it is not going to happen in my time frame. I refuse to let this break me and I will continue to keep my faith.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

20 comments:

  1. So sorry about the negative test. It's so hard. Just said a prayer for you. Hugs.

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  2. Oh, I'm so sorry to hear about the test. :( You're right though, being impatient and frustrated that things aren't happening in your timeline isn't productive. You'll get there when you're supposed to get there! <3

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  3. First time commenter.
    Sorry to hear about your BFN. :(
    I'm hoping to read about a success IVF for you very soon.
    Good luck to you!

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  4. Glad that you are trying to keep your faith. I've had my shaken a few times with all the losses I went through too. Our last attempt at pregnancy finally worked. Had it not worked we were going to live childless.

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  5. Hi from ICLW - I'm so sorry to hear this! I sometimes found the BFN to be as hard as miscarrying...I think because in both cases, your heart is so broken and it feels so devastating...both are losses. Sending you good luck and positivity!

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  6. I'm so sorry. Even though you had a BFN, it is still a devastating loss. Take the time you need to recover.

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  7. Visiting from ICLW. Praying for you both during this very trying time.

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  8. Happy ICLW! I'm sorry about the negative test, especially after the PGD. This journey is so hard... best wishes

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  9. Hugs - there is nothing easy about any of this. All the best in your decision making moving forward. Hugs.

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  10. I'm so sorry this attempt was a bust. Life can be so difficult and trying sometimes. We went through a lot ourselves with a twin loss (at 20 weeks) and our last frozen embryo became our son. Keep your faith and know that it CAN happen. You have to be patient (which is easier said than done) and keep trying for what you want. I will pray your wishes are answered.

    Sending hugs, MissC
    http://missconception-ads.blogspot.com/

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  11. I am also sorry for your loss. Thank you for the encouraging words:)

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